Spoke to Bloodaxe the other night.  Was high as hell when he found me the first time and I can't remember a lot of what was said but there was crying and frustration and finally some moving on I think.  Finally some closure and relief.  And I think I fell asleep he kept petting my hair like a weirdo

Can hardly think straight.  The axe is ready, just ( Read more... )

You stop this right now Arhena. No more of this feeling business. No more of this thinking there's anything left of him in that eye. There is only a runeblade.

One that can apparently draw me into himself for tea time whenever he wants.

This isn't a game we're playing. Dae expects me to be the humanity to his killing machine. Not something weak ( Read more... )

The walk back home was sobering enough I guess.

it just had to happen in front of an audience, didn't it.  How humbling my poor ego

I just left like he asked.  I wasn't going to have an absolute disregard for his concern

not after what happened before.  It's not like I hadn't planned on sobering up once the faire left anyway.

My head hurts a lot, heh

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 My head hurts and my face feels like it's burning.  The color of the parchment is hurting my eyes for goodness' sake.

I'll keep this short.  I set off to find Kalrin.  I found him and he was injured, but on the road to quick recovery.  I visited him a few times before travelling back with him to the peninsula.  He managed to give me a short lesson ( Read more... )

Haven't seen Kalrin in a while now. It's been pretty quiet at Thunder Bluff. Smokestack and Walter don't get along, for whatever reason. Gari stays well away from both of them, not that I can blame him.

The lovey dovey holiday is over. Makes me feel better.

In other news, I can feel myself getting stronger, running for longer periods time, ( Read more... )

I had a strange ... episode, yesterday.  I felt angry at nothing.  It was an unquenchable anger, too.  I couldn't figure out why, or maybe I was just too incoherent with rage to figure it out properly, but I went off and burned some things.  And punched some things.  And did some exercises.  I felt less angry today.  I refuse to believe that it has ( Read more... )

 Can hardly write, I feel so tired, but I need to write stuff down ( Read more... )

 I don't have anything to prove to anyone but myself.  I am committed to this and I will not stop until I achieve perfection.  That may take a long time, but I have a long amount of time ahead of me ( Read more... )

Gari's here. He gets along really well with Walter. That's the name I gave the squirrel Kalrin gave me.

Things are looking up, definitely.

*A happy face is drawn here!*

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I can walk on a balance beam without having to stare at it the whole time.

I just need to keep up the work. Been doing a few other things with the intent to get stronger than I am. Arhena was always stronger. I was always smarter.

Spoke to the Doctor about all of that. I'm ... starting to hope a little more. He knows the truth and was a bit ( Read more... )